Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Forgotten

Breathing in
Breath out
Breath.

Inhale.
Exhale. 


They say
That's what it's all about.


I don’t want to remember
I just can’t bear to remember


Your face
Your laugh


Our memories
My loss.


I see your face
The ghost of you


Every day I live
Everywhere I go


The memories grow..
More vivid everyday

When I walk..

Down the street

I think I see your figure

I think I see your shadow


Why can’t it just be?
Just like it was before


The sharp knives of reality
Have torn us apart before


We should get over..
The new scars that break us



To try to relive
To try to mend


The days of our glory
The moment of our youth
The time of our lives
The age of our splendor



I know it may be time
To let you go


I just want
The shadow of you

To become true


The ghost of your love
Haunts me time from time


When I discover
The memories that we shared


Buried in my heart
From that age


I just don’t want to let go..
Of the love I thought we had


Of the love we might have


I think we could have shared..


What is left
Of the ruins
Of that love


Is a broken hearted girl
Trying to mend the scars


Still living
With the shadow


Haunting from that love
Reappearing


Making it even harder
To forget of our love.












Monday, April 2, 2012

Foxface: In The Arena



Author’s note:  I loved writing my other piece Katniss: In The Arena.  That was a piece from the perspective of an anonymous tribute coming face to face with Katniss.  This is the same idea, except different scenes and characters.  This time I really wanted to explore the character Foxface.  She is the red head mysterious tribute from District 5.  In the book, she is always alone and doesn’t talk very much.  Of course, there isn’t a lot of information about this character.  I just wanted to try to capture what she was thinking and doing in the arena.  Please enjoy and give me feedback.

I scan the area for any of the others.  The coast is clear.  Quickly eying the trees and scenery, I dash away.  My feet feel limitless as I dart around logs and leap soundlessly around shrubs.  Air rushes around me. It feels as if time was speeding by my arms.  Time was lifting me up, up and away.  Blowing around my hair and pushing me through.  Away from here I flew through time.  No one could touch me up here in the clear skies.  Breath in.  Breath out…

Stopping, I hear something.  What could it be?  Pushing against a tree I hear crunching leaves and laughter. 

I know it must be the careers.  They are ignorant, bloodthirsty and powerful…I can’t fight them with lack of weapons, but I can outrun them. 
They are all quite fast and powerful…but it makes me laugh, because they aren’t as quick as me.

They walk past me as I sit there crouched behind a tree. Again, I laugh.  Stupidity and lack of eye to detail fail them.  All of them are gifted fighters, but none of them notice anything except of it smacks them right in their faces.
  
As they noisily move out of the area, I look around to see if anything else is coming.  With a newfound hope, I spring up to run.

Out of the corner of my eye, I spot movement.  My heart starts violently pumping.  Sweat forms on my forehead and my arms quiver.  Looking down at my hands, I realize that I have nothing.  No bow, no arrows and no knives.  No form of weapon to protect myself.  Something emerges from the trees. 

She stands there.  Silent.  Pondering.  Wondering what to say when she gazes up at me.  Her eyes are curious and almost fearful when she spots me. Quickly her eyes graze my hands.  Of course she notices that I have nothing to use to fight if she decides to attack me.

Those grey eyes she has, stare into me.  Sharpening and fixing themselves on my timid form. 

Still focusing in on me, her hands grasp an arrow and she seizes her bow. She steps back swiftly aiming at me.  I know she has a good shot, so fighting isn’t an option.  I turn and run into the trees. 

I hear a flick and the arrow soars into the tree next to me. Shocked, I turn around to see her bow zeroing in on me.

Again, I flee twisting and turning through the shrubs and dodging the rocks and other obstacles.  My breath is rigid and hot as I push harder and harder.
In front of me, a bolder blocks my way.  Gasping for breath, I push my legs up a hill. 

Run. 

Run.

Run.

I can’t give up now.  Honestly, I have an advantage.  I don’t need other people to help me.  All I have is myself.  There is no one to abandon me, to kill me, to turn on me or to die so I’m helpless and alone.  No one will benefit me, and I will not benefit someone else. I’m in it to win it; in it to finish and rise victorious. 

It’s all a big game.  Either you’re in it, or you’re out.  I don’t exactly want to be one of the Capitol’s chess pieces, placed and positioned wherever they please.  I just know that if you want it.  If you really want it…you will kill for it.

In the distance, I hear a shriek.  A crash.  Then, there is a loud boom.  One more dead.  One less to fight, and that means one less to kill.  That also means that my chance is growing higher and higher to win this.

Chills run down my spine, and my arms feel tingly. Everytime I hear that loud boom, my heart almost explodes.  It scares me…because I might be next.

I am scared of weakness and terrified of defeat.  That’s why I don’t want to talk to any of the other tributes.  I don’t want to show them my fear, or any of my weaknesses.  Then, they could take advantage of me.  For that, I greatly fear of.  Speaking shows weakness…I don’t want to come off as weak and easy to kill.   
Silence shows strength and independence.  That is what I want them to see of me.
Crack.  A chilled finger slid down my spine.  I almost screamed in terror.  Each noise meant another person.  People meant…I could be dead.

I hear more cracks and low whispers.  It’s the careers….I panic and hide behind a big oak tree.

They emerge from the bushes….Katniss Everdeen and Peeta Mellark.

“Stop stepping on the sticks and leaves!  You step too loudly..”

“I’m sorry..” He slightly smiles at her.

“Don’t move Peeta…. I’ll be right back.”

I smirk as she leaves.  Leaving the weak one alone I see… Maybe he’ll do something stupid and be dead because of that.   

If I do kill Peeta, then Katniss will avenge for him. 

An eye for an eye.  Bloodshed for bloodshed I suppose.

So I will spare Peeta’s life for now. 

Watching from the shadows, I see Peeta bending down to pick some dark blue berries.  Hunger strikes me as I see him with food.  Just one bite. I’m so hungry.  He won’t notice if I steal them right from under his nose.

My mouth feels dry from being deprived of water and food.  Whatever it takes…I will get that food.  It will be so easy to take them from him.

Right as he puts down the berries, I take off.  Before he turns around, I snatch them up. I feel the moist tender morsels in my hands. 

I feel almost light headed when I see the berries.  These are a prize for me; A generous gift of nature. 

For now, I will just have one berry.  I don’t want to eat all of them at once.  Looking at my hands, I realize there must be over thirty berries.  What I little treat I have here.

Tenderly, I pick up a berry and place it in my mouth.  The juice runs into my mouth and down my throat.  

Suddenly, I feel wobbly.  At that moment I realize that they were poisonous
..just before the moment as I drop down dead.  

Dark and gone to the world.

Now….there is one less they have to fight in the arena.  One less to defend.  I am one less to be defeated  And one less for them to kill.  I am just another used up piece for the pleasure of the Capital...in their game.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

A Little Sunlight: Mayella Ewell Character Analysis

Mayella is a victim of assault and abuse.  This was not inflicted by Tom Robinson, the black man who allegedly raped Mayella in the novel To Kill A Mockingbird.  Out of hatred and racism, Bob Ewell blamed him for the offense.  Robert “Bob” Ewell is the drunken, abusive father of Mayella who was the victim of a sinister crime.  Instead of facing up to what he was causing and the own truth about his family’s reputation, he wanted to control his daughter.  Out of fear of more beatings, she protected him by accepting the punishment that Tom was to bear.  Mayella was abused, neglected and looked over.  Her hands and mind were filthy with the dirt of abuse and her forced conviction of Tom’s alleged crime

To help cope with her internal and external beating, she plants geraniums to have a little hope in her life.   The geraniums suggest that Mayella desires to be better than her surroundings, to make something bright in her dull world, to aspire to higher things. But whatever Mayella’s hopes and dreams are, she doesn’t get a chance to express them to the reader.  She almost exposes her father’s true intentions to Atticus, but her father restrains her.  Her father abuses her and doesn’t allow the necessary human connection.  The flowers help branch out her isolated, grimy world and give her a small shred of hope.


If you have a controlling abusive authority figure in your life, you protect them out of fear.  Mayella fears of what her father will do to harm her, if she speaks out of the abuse he afflicted upon her.  Tom Robinson was just the perfect person for him to blame.  He’s a black man who Mayella attempted to seduce just to have a human connection.  Just because of his race, and the huge amount of racial discrimination in Maycomb, everyone believes he did it.  Mayella is a silenced victim of abuse and social segregation.  She is silenced by her abusive father and of the fear that he will injure her once again.


In her grimy, socially isolated world Mayella lives in fear every day of what her father will do to harm her.  The geraniums she plants give in a little to the human association she so greatly craves. Her father tries to make her world even smaller, by crushing that connection and forcing her to convict him. Just like the geraniums she plants, she is in dire need of a little sunlight in her boxed in world.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Close Your Eyes




Just close your eyes

You’ll be okay
It’ll be alright

When the sun rises

You’ll find your prince
And he will find his princess

Don’t you worry

Your story will be complete
At least your heart

Your story will go on and on

A romantic tale
Is reality

Don’t cry


Love will find you
You will find love
In a hopeless place

In this small town

He’ll sweep you off you feet

Carry you away
Into the sunset

You will be the princess
He will be the prince

Just close your eyes
Close them tight
Imagine.

Someday….
You will find the love
That you are destined
To find

True love
Is hard to see

You have to fight
He will fight for you

Whatever stands in his way
He will find you
His damsel

You just have to be on the lookout for him

Don’t just choose
Anyone you see

Wait.

Remember.

Remember that prince
Fighting to find you

Just wait.

Close your eyes
Just close your eyes




Monday, March 19, 2012

Ignite




Ignite
Ignite your bones

Start a spark

Grow

Growing

Growth….

Take all that you have
Give all that you are

Make it into something Beautiful.

Extraordinary

Shoot your colors

Flowing

Up.
Up.
Up.

Across the sky

Turning the gray space
To a future

A hurricane
To a rainbow

Rain
To sunshine

A blank canvas…
To a new masterpiece

Empty thoughts
Extending to new horizons

A shadowy past
To a brilliant future

An ominous night sky
To a starry night

Blank expressions
To new heights

Everything can be beautiful

Just how you look at it

Set fire to..
Your soul

Make your heart
Blazing



Burning

Burning

Burning


Your flawed past away

Watch it

As it blows…
Away from here

Scattered ashes

Across the earth
To new waters

Reaching new distances

So away you go
Away from here

Stray

Stray away from here

Ignite

Ignite the past

Light is in the future

Ignite the light

Let the blazes shine

Ignite…………




Thursday, March 15, 2012

Invisible Children

Author's note:  This is a poem that I was inspired to write after I saw the Kony video.  If you haven't seen it...please look up Kony 2012 on youtube.  It will make you cry, I know I did.  If you have no idea what I'm talking about, Kony is a vile man.  He is the leader of the Lord's Resistance Army In Africa.  This group captures children and forces them to become slaves or to mutilate other children.  Before they take them, they kill their family and neighbors so that have no one to turn to.  This makes them join.  Hundreds and thousands of children have been captured by this man. Make him famous.  Make these invisible children heard.  Not only hear them, listen to their cries.  I feel like we need to do something..and this poem expresses it.



Invisible children………………………………

Invisible children.


Hidden.
Isolation.
 Suffering.

Captured……….

From the life
They knew before

In the world…
They stand alone



Facing….
A choice

Of violence
Of death

Of uprising
Of mutilation

Of standing
Of falling

Of blood….
And of tears…………



Tears streaming
Down their face



War torn tears
Tearing their youth

Innocence
Ripped
From their very hands….


Don’t just fall

Don’t cover your eyes




 
Breath in.
Breath out.
 Breath in the loss



Breath in their loss

                                                                                                    Look.

Look at their faces….


See their blood.

 See other’s blood shed before them…


Reach.
 To their hands

Hear their cries
Hear their voices

See their tears
Clean the blood

From their hands…

Please…
We cannot have them fade as…


Invisible Children……..